The Night Before

So, I'm over 200lbs again. I weighed myself yesterday and I'm right around 203lbs.

At one point last year, I was at 186lbs on the 8th day of the Master Cleanse when I decided to stop and go back to a normal diet. I figured I could maintain my 186, but carbohydrates prevailed and here I sit.

To add insult to injury, Jesus lost a ton of weight and looks like a god damned model. He did it with the South Beach diet, sticking to it religiously. I'm not really sure how he perseveres but he manages to keep the weight off still. So that's kind of been my inspiration.

I'm planning to go 8-10 days this time on the Master Cleanse. While this, in and of itself, isn't easy, the real trouble will come afterward so it's important to have a plan for after as well as during. Right now, my after-plan is basically to follow South Beach phase one for as long as possible. 186lbs is nice, but I'd rather be down in the 160's.

As far back as I can remember, I've never been thin. I've been thin-ner but not thin in general. I used to weigh in at 175lbs and even then I had some love handles. I'd love to wear nice clothes and not have to choose the colors that best hide my fat.

I'd also love to wear a decent suit and not be at all embarrassed to take my shirt off around the pool. I'm not that shy about it now but it would be nice not to worry about it much at all.

Another thing I've noticed is that girls don't look at me the same way they used to. I don't know whether this is my imagination or if it's really because I've added on the pounds. It's a confidence booster when girls look at you and smile. :D

In any case -- for me, thinner works better. Of course, if I get too thin my eyes start to look really sunken in (that's one thing I remember from being a kid).

So anyway, I remember from last time I was biking to work while doing the cleanse. While I'm not saying I won't try and start it up again, I won't rely on it.

I'm thinking I might start the Hundred Push-Ups challenge again.

I just weighed myself again for the night and I'm 205lbs, more than I've ever weighed in my whole life. I'm sure some of it has to do with all the water I've consumed trying to do the salt water flush for the master cleanse, but still. The timing could not be more right.